This is a post I stood convinced would never be written from my fingers, never appear on my blog, never materialize from my life.
And yet, here I stand (or, sit), writing it today. Fully aware that it will be met with much joy, but also much pain. So I must begin with a disclaimer, for those I feel most protective of, those of you who know the suffering of childlessness while others continue to receive their blessings... if you are in a bad place, today, please, be kind to yourself. Click away. Know you are at the forefront of my thoughts and prayers, and know that you can come back another day, if you so desire.
And for the rest of you, you may have guessed by now. You may not believe what you are reading, you may be reading these words just as frantically as I am writing them. You may be cursing at me for doing this in such traditional TCIE fashion as to draw out the drama as much as humanly possible. But that won't stop me from basking in every. single. moment. of this moment I've dreamed of since I was a little girl. This moment I still feel must be happening to someone else, because this can't be my life. This moment of shock, awe, humility, gratitude, joy, happiness, peace, and a whole lot o' "Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa???????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
A soul other than my own has been sent down upon me.
TCIE is pregnant.
Did I really just type that? Is this a joke? Am I for real?
While I'm still in a place of disbelief, and talking about it feels as if I'm having an out-of-body experience, I assure you - it's the God's honest truth. We found out yesterday, on the Feast of the Assumption. For those of you who know just how important and crucial that date is for us, it should be no surprise. Nothing about this timing, in fact, is ordinary. And yet at the same time, this appeared to be, on paper, the LEAST likely time for it to occur.
I will post during the week a series with more information, entitled How I Knew, How We Found Out, and How We Told... (I know you're on the edge of your seats.)
But, for now, dear blog readers, friends, and sisters in Christ I may have never known existed - Be content to know that from this moment onward, TCIE is Barren No More.
I am a mother. Forever more.
"Because He who is mighty has done great things for me,
And holy is His name." - Magnificat