DH and I were talking about it last night, and how we both are about to go crazy from feeling stagnant. Nothing is changing, nothing is happening, and yet we are both incredibly overtired, and on-the-go non-stop. Seems like with all the constant motion in our lives, we should have moved a great distance. But instead, we're treading water.
I've decided I at least need a new blog "look." I'll be looking into a re-design, re-vamp, etc. soon.
I also am waaaaay behind on pictures of some home renovation and design that has taken place in the past year. I promise, those are coming.
I had a heart to heart with God a couple of weeks ago. I sometimes talk to Him out loud (in my car, or alone in my room) - somehow speaking out loud helps me more fully express myself, and emote more. I didn't even know what I wanted to say, so I just started with,
"I'm Just. SO. Tired...."
I was waiting for the next words to form in my mind and fall out my mouth. Tired of... tired of... what? But nothing came.
And it hit me. I'm just TIRED. That's all. Not tired of any particular thing, or even any general thing. I'm just plain tired.
I really cannot fathom continuing like this without some kind of change soon. There may be some changes on our horizon, but whether or not they actually transpire is yet to be determined.
I need to apologize, because this is not what I wanted this blog to be. I feel like all of my readers are dropping like flies because, like me, they are just tired of reading the same. silly. thing. over here, time after time after time. I truly wish I had some news to share. Any news. I wish this blog hadn't turned into a "Thanks for stopping by, still barren and unable to adopt over here!" place that it has become. It's old. I get it. TRUST ME, I get it.
I'm ready to move forward.