For the first time ever (well, at least that I know of, and let's face it, I have pretty much constant-access to ultrasound), I formed a LUF.
Totally stinks. Sorry to disappoint those of you who were convinced that the "bad" cycles were the best cycles. Not for me.
When I saw the LUF yesterday, I slipped into depression-mode. I am just having a really hard time watching myself go backwards. I am eating SO HEALTHY, and feel really great on my supplements and diet... so why is it not being reflected in my cycles?? I really don't get it.
JellyBelly was here at just the right time. She told me something last night that really slapped me in the face with reality. She said I have to stop dwelling in "TCIE: The Infertile," and concentrate on being just TCIE.
So true. But I honestly don't remember who TCIE is, without infertility. I've built my life around this cross... and while, at the time I was doing it, I knew God wanted me to use it for the greater good... now I find it very difficult to separate myself from the cross and just be ME.
I need to reflect on this a bit more. Stay tuned...