You may think this post would be accompanied by a picture of a positive pregnancy test. Or perhaps another big announcement. But instead, things here are status quo. Not even my cycle has shown improvements (this month I had black bleeding with gigantic clots at the end of the period - lovely, I know).
Status quo. For me, if you've ever read this blog before, you'll know that status quo is pretty much bottom-of-the-barrel. Depleted bank accounts. Failing fertility. Ongoing court battles. Family health issues and death. Pregnant unwed sisters-in-law. Constant humiliation from all angles. That is my status quo.
But I am beginning to understand how very blessed I am. I am, for once, seeing into the heart of the Beatitudes. Blessed are the poor. Blessed are those who mourn. Blessed are those who thirst for righteousness.
Blessed am I.
I can't even tell you how excited I am to receive my newly ordered "Joy in Suffering" novena booklet to St Therese. It will arrive just in time for me to begin a Novena for her Feast Day Oct. 1st.
I am just starting to get my feet wet in this new life of joy in suffering, and I think it took me so long because I just couldn't see past the pain. Little did I know then that it wasn't the pain I had to see past in order to find the joy. It was the pain I had to see INTO. God's love, all along, has been engulfing me inside of this great, big ditch - and here I've been, trying to claw, climb, and dig myself up and out just to get a glimpse of what I was blind to see I already had.