So much for Naltrexone helping my PMS. I guess I built up a tolerance to it, because the past 3 cycles have been CRAZY with the emotional outbursts, depression, anxiety, fatigue, etc. I even switched back to the compounded form this cycle (I had been compounding it myself.) I mean, it's pretty bad when you find yourself thinking of ways to "kill yourself" without actually "killing yourself," like while driving on a 3-lane highway, what if I just close my eyes right now and go to sleep for an extended amount of time...
yeah. Not good.
Or perhaps the depression today is residual from my afternoon of going to the Women's Clinic at the hospital where I work with my pregnant single (though still legally married, and not to the man who's the father) 41 year old sister-in-law, helping her to sign up for temporary Medicaid and then getting her progesterone monitoring bloodwork. This could have something, maybe, to do with my state of mind at the moment.
Another factor may be that my own progesterone from P+7 (yesterday) was only 33 ng/mL. I know this may sound like a great number, but not when a) I took Femara and ovulated from at least two, possibly three follicles and should now have two or three corpus luteums, and b) last month with only ONE corpus luteum, my progesterone was 49.9 ng/mL.
My body sucks.
I'm sitting at home crying right now. I don't know what to do anymore. Is this my new norm? Crazy-depressed for at least 10 days before every period?? God, I hope not.
I need a nice, long nap. Someone wake me up when I'm 50, please?