For the past 2 years on these blogs, I feel like at LEAST twice a month there is some amazing miracle and blessing being announced. Pregnant for the first time after years of infertility, surprise/immediate adoption after years of waiting on "the list," announcing twins after the first ultrasound, announcing subsequent pregnancies, announcing the birth of a healthy baby after a history of recurrent losses...
Here's my announcement:
Today I found out I'm not pregnant.
What else is new.
In two weeks time, I will be shelling out $5,000 for Clear Passage physical therapy - $5,000 I do not have, and which could be better spent on making home improvements for my awesome old house. With all the money I've spent over the past 5 years on infertility, I could have adopted twice or even more.
Will I ever be coming onto this blog to make my Miracle Announcement? Or will I be writing the same ol' crap for the next 15 years, begging for prayers, giving meaningless updates about my cycles and house renovations, and trying to avoid reading all the other blogs during that PMS week (where, of course, there will likely be more and more miracle announcements)?
This is getting so old. I knew I shouldn't get my hopes high, what in the world was I thinking? Of course it's not my time. It's everyone else's time, but never mine. Shame on me for daring to believe any different.
Seriously, someone REMOVE ME FROM THE INTERNET when I am PMSing.