I realize it's been an unusually long blog absence for me, and I'm sorry if I had some of you worried. Just around the time my period finally arrived (which is weird since I had that cyst, but I guess my body must have done something resembling ovulation if I got a period), I also came down with a nasty case of laryngitis. Or, it would seem. All I know is after my 6th follow-up appointment on Tuesday evening, I was losing my voice, feeling very tired and achy, and had a sore throat. The next day, voice was on its way out, and Friday it was gone all day. I continued to work through my normal work schedule (Wed-Fri at the imaging center, plus I had follow-ups, Intros, and ultrasounds to do at the NaPro office after work hours), and by Saturday I was DONE. I had one follow-up scheduled for Saturday afternoon that I had to re-schedule. And, I was supposed to go get my fasting blood glucose and insulin levels Saturday morning, but could not get out of bed.
It's a good thing I rested yesterday, because today I'm finally starting to feel better. Feeling sick always kinda sucks, but at least when you're sick and pregnant, you're, well, sick and PREGNANT. I'm just sick and barren. Furthermore, sick and heavily bleeding. (I'd rather be sick at any. other. time. of the month than during my period. Who's with me?)
Aside from the illness, I have not had a lot of time to blog lately. I'm getting into the flow of things at my imaging center job, and getting more comfortable with it, as well as getting TONS of new clients for Creighton Model. An ad ran in our county paper about my NaPro Dr's office, and around the same time, a radio announcement advertised the NYC NaPro Center, which was heard by people in NJ, who then discovered there was a closer NaPro Center than Manhattan. We are getting swamped with new clients, which is great, but I have literally no time left! I miss my blog!!
Finally, the third reason for my absence has been that despite being busy, there isn't much that is very exciting going on at the moment. The house is sorta in limbo, we're negotiating certain inspection items, and not sure if we're closing Oct 31st (highly unlikely) or the original close date of Nov 22nd (more likely, but still a chance it may not happen). I'm trying not to sound pessimistic, here, but the closer we get to actually moving out, the more freaked I'm getting that SOMETHING horrible is going to happen to prevent it. I guess I am having a hard time believing that after the year (year and a half) we've had, that something could actually go in our favor.
On that note, last week's and this week's gospels could not have come at a better time. My prayer life has been, well, let's just say challenged. There have been weeks, seriously, WEEKS that have gone by during which the only prayer coming from my lips or my head was grace before dinner. How sad is that? But I got a wake up call from the homilies at Mass, which talked about prayer two weeks in a row. First: perseverance in prayer. I guess I felt like God has already heard my prayers, and He's working on it, so why keep bothering Him? Plus, I'm sure there was a bit of resentment working its way in there, keeping me from praying prayers of gratitude for what I do have. Additionally, I feel like right now, I'm doing ok, so prayers aren't a dire necessity at the moment.
As if by Divine Intervention, yesterday in the mail I received a book from the Baby Mama of my tiny unborn goddaughter. It is called: "The Power of a Praying Wife." It suddenly dawned on me just how selfish I have been in regards to how I was viewing my prayer life. If I can't muster up a few prayers for myself, I have a DUTY to at least be praying for my husband! He truly is suffering right now, with work and financial stress being at its peak, and the other issues which are keeping us from adoption/foster care. How could I not have been praying for him daily??
Thank you, Sew, for that much-needed slap in the face.
Tomorrow I'll be getting my fasting bloodwork done. I've been off Metformin for about a month now, and it will be very interesting to see what my levels are. Dr D in California thinks I need to eliminate sugar. I may just have to lay over and die right now if that's the case. I am excited about Tuesday's appointment with my NaPro Dr, when we will be figuring out how to implement all of the suggestions and tests Dr D in CA has suggested after our 2 hour phone consult. There is a LOT of stuff she wants to do to improve my health.
I'll keep you posted.