I am PMSing like nobody's business.
Bloated. Sore boobs. BITCHY. Headaches. Bitchy. Hot flashes. Did I mention bitchy?
I recently started weaning off all of my prescription meds. I wasn't on too many as of late, since I wasn't "gung-ho" trying, but I stopped my Naltrexone and Metformin. I was nervous to stop the Metformin, because a) I've been on for a while, and was convinced it was helping my ovulations, b) was told my Dr Kwak-Kim that I should ALWAYS be on Metformin due to the PAI-1 clotting mutation that I have (putting me at greater risk for diabetes in my future, which I also have increased risk for with PCOS), and c) I think I look at my Metformin as a crutch. I can say in theory that I'm not gung-ho trying to conceive, but as long as I'm taking my Metformin, I know I'll be "healthy" enough to do so should God want to throw me a curve ball.
But it was necessary I come off, because I needed to test my fasting glucose and insulin levels. I will be doing that some time this week. Then we'll see if I need to go back on Metformin.
Coming off Naltrexone wasn't nearly as difficult. It costs me $50 a month, so I was happy to save that... but I had forgotten how bad my PMS can be when I'm not taking it :( This REALLY sucks. A couple of days would be fine, but this has already been going on for several.
All that being said, I am eating much healthier lately, getting lots of protein and fiber. I am happy to report that I am visiting the restroom much more frequently :) It is glorious.
Oh, and possibly another PMS symptom (or perhaps just my subconscience going haywire) is the crazy dreams I've been having about the house lately. The first one was that DH and I snuck in to look around inside again, but then ran into the sellers, clearing out the attic rooms! I was mortified to be "caught" in the house we didn't own yet.
The second was much worse. Last night, I dreamt that the realtor contacted us and asked us to meet him at the house. I drove in my own car and DH met me there, but was running behind. When I got there, I sat down to speak with him, and heard other people walking around the house. Suddenly, a young woman came walking down the stairs, with two friends with her and her husband. And, wouldn't you know it, as she turned the corner the first thing I saw was her ginormous pregnant belly. She was looking at the banister saying, "... and this of course I would want to change..." to which her friend responded, "Oh, yeah, that is hideous, I would definitely change that." I started freaking out, and called DH. He showed up shortly after, and the preggo and her people all filed out together after touring the basement.
As soon as they left, DH asked the realtor, in not so many words, what the bleep was going on?!?!?! He responded that this couple was interested in the house, too, and that until closing they were able to look at it. I knew the closing (in the dream) was only a couple weeks away, so I said, "Oh, sure, but what are the odds that they will even make an offer? And even if they did, they couldn't get a mortgage and everything by the time we're ready to close, right?" He just shook his head and said, "Well, they actually came to look at the house first in August, and now they have come back expressing great interest in it. I believe they're already mortgage approved." We. were. livid!!! (Of course this couldn't happen in reality, we are long done with attorney review and no other offers can be accepted. But I was asleep and hallucinating, clearly.) I seriously was SO ticked!!! And of course I woke up hating the non-existent pregnant whore who was stealing my house away from me... not to mention her whore of a friend who dissed my beautiful Victorian banister.
Can you tell I'm still a little peeved? I was re-telling the dream to DH this afternoon and told him, "I can't believe she said that about the banister!!" and he just looked at me and replied, "You mean you can't believe YOU said it? It was your dream."
Apparently this month's PMS symptoms also include insanity.
I'm somewhat concerned, however, that these are not PMS symptoms at all... I do not think I ovulated this cycle. But I DO know that I have a large hemorrhagic cyst on my right ovary :( I scanned myself transabdominally at work on CD 14 and saw what looked like a mature follicle on the right, though I didn't measure it. I was SO EXCITED! MY RIGHT OVARY!!! THE LAZY ONE! OUT OF RETIREMENT!! Finally, something was working correctly. But then the next day I decided to do the unmentionable and, a-hem, scan myself transvaginally. (It's actually not as difficult as it would sound!) The problem with the transabdominal scans is that you can't see detail of cysts - they all look simple and fluid-filled. So, dermoids, endometriomas, follicles, and corpus lutei all look exactly the same. Transvaginally, I measured a 3.75cm septated/debris-filled cyst (hemorrhagic, most likely) on my right. No sign anywhere, on that ovary or the left of a corpus luteum.
I was so disappointed. While I'm not gung-ho trying, it is still a huge disappointment when you can't rely on your body to perform its basic healthy functions. It truly is.
So, is this a functional cyst, secreting hormones and causing these PMS-like symptoms? Or, what the heck is going on?? I miss my Metformin :( It would seem that it was indeed helping me to ovulate normally.
I have an appointment with my NaPro Dr on the 26th. I'll keep you posted as to what her thoughts are on this whole situation.