Here I am only 3 days past ovulation, and I'm already getting weepy and depressed.
I am not necessarily upset about the prospect of another failed cycle. I am investing much less in each given cycle lately than I was early this year, but it's more the issue of prognosis with more and more cycles passing after surgery.
I just had a lengthy (hour and 1/2) phone conversation with Dr D. in California, the NaPro Dr that I was referred to by Dr. B (Ireland). She had some fantastic ideas for me, and will put it all in writing soon (but of course I took notes), and surprisingly, she is really concentrating on my gut/intestines. I have an "issue" with regularity. I have never once in my life "felt" constipated, and for the longest time I thought it was normal for people to go once every 3-4 days. I actually thought something was wrong with my husband when we first got married and I saw how often he was in the bathroom, lol!
But she is hugely concerned by this, and thinks that the dietary restrictions I am currently implementing isn't cutting it. She suspects Candida, and wants me to have a stool profiling done to check for yeast, as well as start eating completely healthy foods, high fiber, high protein, etc. I should also supplement with more Magnesium.
The other area she concentrated on a lot was my insulin and blood sugar. The two sort of go hand-in-hand. She wants me to see a Nutritionist, possibly get another (better) food sensitivity testing, get on only high-quality supplements, and again, eat a GOOD diet with 3 meals and snacks throughout the day. She said the low blood sugar wreaks havoc on my system, and then my gut in turn causes an immune reaction. She said my diagnosis of Adrenal Fatigue is huge- and that if I am showing improvement on cortisol, I need to figure out ways to address the underlying problem. Interestingly, she said both insulin-resistance and food allergies can cause adrenal fatigue.
Basically, I need to stop eating so horribly. And it may seem to you all that I eat "healthy" because I've been eliminating COMPLETELY the foods that showed up highly reactive on my food testing (rice, yogurt, mushrooms, saccharin, paprika) - as well as going gluten-free (about 95%). But what that has actually translated to is laziness in my own meal-planning. I find it EXTREMELY difficult to prepare any meals for myself due to the fact that I cannot consume many of the most basic foods. So, I often go without eating, or I'll eat something quick and easy like popcorn, potato chips, french fries, cheese (lots of cheese), etc.
She told me, I don't care if you're not hungry, you HAVE to eat breakfast :)
So, I am happy at the prospect of starting something new that will have long-lasting effects on my overall health. I won't lie, though. I am intimidated. A lot.
And finally, I found out today that my Supervisor "spoke out of turn" when he said I would be starting a week from Monday at my new job. Apparently the owner of the place wanted to meet with my NaPro Dr first to discuss how to "collaborate" (which both my Dr and Supervisor realize won't work at all), AND that he never formally extended me a position. I asked my Supervisor if he thought the owner would change his mind, and he said, "NO! I don't think so." Um, ok. That's convincing. And as for start date? Now my Supervisor is guessing "by October."
This just sucks. No job/no money until MAYBE October. I was waiting to hear back from my NaPro Dr about how the meeting this afternoon went, but she didn't call me back :( Why couldn't I catch just ONE break this year? Just one. I don't understand what any further suffering will achieve for me at this point. I really don't.