So I've just returned from the pre-op appt with Dr Ste.gman.
Ohhhhhh that pelvic exam.
What's interesting is that I did have a bit of pain, mostly on the left, during the exam. Uh oh. I asked if that was my ovary, and he said he is not sure if it's ovary or rectum/stool. (Why would my stool hurt?)
So I'm hoping that's not adhesions. Not that endo re-growth is much better, but I feel like endo is a bit easier to get rid of than adhesions (LifeHopes can probably attest to that).
I asked about that fimbriatic cyst on my left side. Apparently I was mistaken and it is a paratubal cyst, very small, and is slightly involved with the fimbria but has its own "stalk" connecting it to the tube. He said he has seen this many times before, and at such a small size, it is not interfering with the fimbria's ability to scoop over the ovary and pick up the egg. But that if I am concerned about it, he will see if he can remove it during this lap. He also said this type of cyst they know to come from embryonic cells... when he first said that my heart skipped a beat. I stupidly thought for some reason he was telling me that I had, at least once in my life, conceived life inside of me. Nope. No such luck. It was from MY embryonic cells - I've had this cyst since I was an embryo! (Now I kinda feel bad getting rid of it!)
I also asked about my thyroid hormones, which were recently tested again and everything came back in beautifully perfect range (TSH 1.13, ideal) except the reverse T3 was elevated again. It was in the "normal range" as given by the lab, but the upper normal, and my NaPro Dr said it was high. This is what caused me to go on T3 to begin with. That and my lower-than-optimal basal body temperatures.
Dr S. was the one who suggested I come off T3 since I had been on it over 2 years and had seen no great improvement. He said he doesn't think elevated reverse T3 alone is enough to warrant me going back on a med that did nothing for me. I tend to agree. He did say if I start to have symptoms of a "sick" thyroid, I may consider going on a T3/T4 combo med like Armour. I don't think I need that, either. I have chronic stress. This we already know, from the bacterial vaginosis strain that keeps coming back on my paps - and high reverse T3 is yet another response to stress.
Any ideas on how to relieve stress? Correction: any ideas on how to relieve stress when you have MY life??
*Side note: This morning my DH got some really bad news. His lawyer called and it turns out the "other party" of this legal situation we're dealing with has decided that the PTI (pre-trial intervention) is not a "harsh enough" punishment for my husband, so they are moving to not allow it. PTI would mean that my husband would have this thing expunged from his permanent record after 1.5 years. Without PTI, it goes on his permanent record and hence would likely mean we could not adopt. EVER. In the past when I've written about this I made it sound like the PTI was a given and that our current state of inadoption was only for the time being. Well, not so anymore.
It's like the universe had to squeeze in ONE MORE horrible thing before we leave for Cancun to make June 2009- June 2010 the absolute worst year anyone in the world has ever had. (OK, yes, I'm being dramatic, and yes, I know lots of people have it a LOT worse than I do. But a LOT of people I know have it a LOT BETTER, too.)
So my surgery is on Friday. I am nervous. I'm pretty certain this will be the last surgical adventure I'll have with NaPro anyway. It's my 3rd surgery. If it doesn't improve things, that's it. I'm barren. AND can't adopt. Scary stuff.
Hard not to be angry when you have my life. I just want to bite someone's head off right now. Anyone will do.