This is something I have desperately been trying to work on.
In my counseling sessions, we've recently identified just how much ANGER I have in my life, and just how long it's been there, festering.
Most of the anger has nothing or little to do with the fertility/adoption situations. But there are a TON of circumstances in my life that make me incredibly angry, and it is so very unhealthy for me.
I have been trying to focus on these areas and "purge" them from my system, but since these are longstanding issues, it is very difficult to do. Prayers would be appreciated on that front.
Additionally, I've noticed that when anger takes over my life, I get angry at all sorts of little things that would normally not upset me.
I also feel completely out of control. It is like a downward spiral, and no matter how much I try to change the circumstances in my life, they just keep getting worse and worse, which then makes me even angrier.
And do you know what I am most angry about? That I am in this position of being angry all the time. That's right. I am MOSTLY angry that I am angry.
I am certifiably insane.