On May 17th, two months to the day of the death of our incredible dog, Uzi, my dear friend from college suddenly passed away.
She had a series of strokes. She was 28.
While I wasn't in constant contact with her since college, she was one of my closer friends while we were in school, because she was in my all-female a cappella group (which was basically my life). She was SO full of life, and so confident, talented, beautiful, and strong. It makes absolutely no sense to me why she's gone.
Since I got the news, I've been mourning her loss and celebrating her life with all of the other a cappella group alumnae. But I've had mixed feelings about what I am to learn from this in my own life.
My friend was such a unique soul- always upbeat, could cheer anyone up, and loved to enjoy life (and had an amazing ability to get everyone around her to enjoy themselves, too). I feel that she did embrace life and live it to its fullest- but she had not yet been engaged, married, or had children. I grieve for her parents, who only had 1 daughter and 1 son - her father will never get to walk his daughter down the aisle. They will never get to see their daughter's face in the face of their grandbaby.
I realize there is more to life than these things. I also realize that not everyone has the same goals in life. But I keep thinking of the prayer I would pray to God almost nightly when I was a little girl: "Please, God, let me have a baby before I die." Would I feel, as I hope my friend did, that I had lived a full and fruitful life if my time is up before I am a mother? I'm not so sure.
At least, I didn't used to think so. But as I reflect on my friend's life (especially her young adult life with which I was most familiar), I see just how fulfilling and joy-filled it was. Never a moment wasted. Never an opportunity passed over. Everything she touched became more lively and more fun.
And I wonder... can I learn from her example? Can I start living every day for that day, and not invest so much energy in what will or will not happen tomorrow?
I am going to try.
Please say a prayer for her family if you will.