I am over it. I lamented the night before (Tuesday) and the day of the BFN (yesterday, 13dpo), but I am really just all done with the stress. Tuesday also marked the day of a HORRIBLE fight with MIL (all passive-aggressive crap).
I'm still really determined to do everything possible before giving up. And I can't very well throw my hands up in the air and surrender after only 1 cycle of immune treatment. Especially with the holidays approaching, and absolutely NO CHANCE that any calls will be made for matches on the adoption front (since, HA HA, we're not worthy of adopting).
So with the BFN, I called my NaPro Dr to harass her for a more aggressive treatment. She did a cycle review with me, which was so nice since I called her in the middle of a work day, and went through recent blood work with a fine-tooth comb. Everything looked perfect. But then, she went back to compare my DHEA results to one from last year. The recent ones were low (which is desirable in women with PCOS- this is one of the hormones like testosterone, that PCOSers tend to make a lot of), but the ones from last year were bigger by hundreds. So, she thinks they may be a little "too" low, because aside from ovarian tissue making DHEA, adrenal glands also make them (following so far?) - so chronic stress could have lead to these low DHEA results, and not just my ovarian wedge resection/Metformin therapy.
So, she wants me to start a LOW dose of DHEA supplements, 5 mgs per day.
She also said that there is the possibility of upping the dose of Femara to try to boost the strength of the ovulation a little more. We're going from 25 mgs (10 tabs) to 30 mgs (12 tabs) this month. Yay!
My Vitamin D was "as high as it can get!" according to her, so I came home to look at the bottle of it (I had been taking 1,000 units until she told me to up it a few months ago to 2,000 units based on some b/w results that were less than optimal...)
Well, I must have bought 2,000 units and not remembered, because for as long as I can remember, I've been popping TWO PILLS every day. In other words, thinking I was taking 2,000 units, I've really been taking 4,000 units of Vitamin D each day!! Lmbo, no wonder they were through the roof high!!
Finally, she said that she'd recommend I stick to the hematologist's recommendation of 60 mgs of Lovenox 2 x day all cycle. What I did last cycle was 40 mgs 2 x day pre-Peak (Dr Kwak-Kim's protocol) and 60 mgs 2 x day post-Peak (hematologist's protocol). What stinks is my insurance only covers 20 syringes of the 60 mgs, while they cover 30 syringes of 40 mgs... but, maybe this is why we live in an apartment attached to my in-laws' house... so we can afford to get pregnant even if it means spending our entire yearly salaries on it!!
Then I called and left a message for Dr. Kwak-Kim. She is out of the country this week, but I left a message to see if she wants me to start prednisone this cycle. (Many of her patients take this, and I'm not quite sure for what, but it's supposed to help something... and it's much cheaper than IVIg, which I do not need thank God.)
I am on a mission. I looked at the calendar today and you will NOT believe this (I couldn't make this up if I tried): my NEXT TWO test dates, at 14dpo, are Thanksgiving Day and Christmas Eve. No joke.
So, yeah, sucks about the BFN, and a smarter woman than I would probably realize that this means I can't get pregnant. Ever. But I'm not willing to give up... not yet...