In more ways than one. I haven't posted too much lately. Strike that, I have posted a lot, but not in many different posts, usually I save it all up and post a hodge-podge of thoughts and emotions that make no sense and don't really go together.
But I'm also slacking on work! I was given a bunch of editing/proofreading stuff to do by my Dr. in the very beginning of March... and my lazy, pre-Hydrocort butt was too lazy to do any of it, and now she'd like them all by Monday at the latest! Eeek!! I really can't believe I put it off this long. I mean, it was nice enough for her to even give me this work to do for an hourly rate... so Divine Mercy Sunday will be Divine Proofreading Sunday for me. (I did get a big batch done today, but I have like 2 more big batches to go.)
And who else is a slacker? Oh, just about ALL of my clients!! I can't even tell you how many appointments have been cancelled, rescheduled, cancelled again, or no-shows this month! I just hope I'm not being too "easy." I mean, this IS my livelihood, here, not some hobby of mine! It really does affect me when I go from having 6 follow-ups scheduled in a week to just having ONE. Baaaahhh! Just another reason to get my ultrasound tech training done, so I don't have to rely on follow-ups solely for my salary.
I've been eating really healthy lately, and WHAT an improvement it has made! I spoke with the nutritionist that the HypnoFertility therapist recommended, but his rates were WAY too high for me to afford right now, so I decided to just listen to my body and my own logic, and just start buying healthy (organic if possible) foods. I love me some falafel wraps, so I think I had about 5 of them last week, lol! I make the falafel from a box mix by adding water, then broil it instead of frying. In the wrap I add thinly-sliced carrots, cucumber, tomato, red onion, and sometimes sprinkle flax seeds in there, too. I coat the wrap in tahini paste, first (I LOVE love love tahini in this wrap!!), and omg, the result is to die for. And let me just tell you, I have been more regular then I've ever been in my LIFE!
Tonight I'm making veggie burgers, with spinach, onion, and tomato.
I just saw a recipe in a magazine for a salad, and need to know if I'm the only one who thinks this is absolutely disgusting. It calls for potstickers, strawberries, and spinach. Potstickers??! Really?!??! It says you can substitute tortellini for the potstickers, which I may try, but yuck, I would NOT put strawberries with potstickers!! I'm wondering if someone copied this out of a recipe book that was ripped by accident. Kinda like Friends, with Rachel's Truffle. "A layer of whipped cream, a layer of strawberry jam, a layer of beef sauteed with peas and onions, a layer of ladyfingers..."
I took my increased oral antibiotics yesterday since it was CD 1. I did get pretty sick for about an hour, but hopefully that won't happen again. I need to take 1500 mgs now on days 1, 4, 8, and 12, instead of the usual 500 mgs days 1-10. Please God let this help!! (I was "feeling" my pelvic inflammation much more than ever this past cycle.)
Our 3rd meeting of the Catholic IF Support Group was this morning. By "our" I mean mine, and the 1 other lady who has attended the last two meetings!! Man, we started out SO WELL! I am hoping more people start coming out of the woodwork. I got so many responses and pre-registrations in the beginning, but then they never came :( I kept thinking of that line from Field of Dreams, "If you built it, they will come." I built it! Where are they?!?! I guess you can't force your help on others, huh?
**UPDATE: I almost forgot the most important thing! I happened to miss the special on EWTN with the Kurtz Family (Life on the Rock)- the amazing parents of 20 adopted children, who themselves went through infertility... anyway, by the time I realized it was even on, it was well past 8:00EST. As you all know, DH and I have been somewhat disillusioned in our adoption process lately, due to the concern of our SW over limited income/savings. DH is a self-employed general contractor, as you may remember.
OK, so as we are about to go to sleep on Friday night, I just flipped by EWTN at 1:00am (we usually don't stay up that late, so this was really odd for us), and there was a repeat of the Kurtz special! Of course we got sucked right in, and stayed up until 2:00am! Well, at one point, the father of the family was asked how he managed to handle all of his responsibilities as a Catholic father, husband, and family provider. His response: "Well, it hasn't always been easy. As a SELF-EMPLOYED GENERAL CONTRACTOR, there have certainly been good years and bad, financially." DH and I slowly turned to each other, mouths agape. This was a SIGN, if anything ever was! I am most definitely going to bring this up to our Social Worker at our next meeting with her (whenever that may be).