It's a -tion kind of day.
I never wrote about this, for no particular reason except that I had just started my blog at the time (last Spring after my surgery), and I had lots of other thoughts that I wanted to write about.
However, some of you have talked about severe abdominal pain as a result of your endometriosis or pelvic adhesions, and thank GOD, that small part of my IF journey is over.
Shortly after my surgery, perhaps May or June of last year, I started to experience some severe, and I mean severe, abdominal pain. But not the kind of "pain" one typically thinks of when they think of "pain." Instead, it was like the most intense, sharp menstrual cramp in the world. It literally would feel like my insides were TWISTING and CONTRACTING, until suddenly it would pass. Usually right afterwards, I would have a bowel movement. Sometimes, the pain came while I was having the bowel movement, and it was so bad, that I'd have to stand up from the bowl (sorry for the tmi here, but I'm trying to be as detailed as possible). I literally would need to stand, change position, walk, or double over whenever this pain would come... much like I've seen women do during labor.
I spoke to my Dr about it, and told her it was not related specifically to any time of my cycle. Rather, it would come and go maybe 2-3 random times, sometimes pre-Peak, sometimes post-Peak. This, plus the fact that it was always coupled with a bowel movement, made her think it was not gynecological, but a digestive issue. She told me to start drinking prune juice. And this worked. What we concluded was that there were some "kinks" leftover from surgery near the bowels, and whenever a large bowel passed through the area, it needed to work past the kinks, hence causing the pain. When I told her, "You'll think I'm crazy, because I have no idea what contractions feel like, but I swear, I was having contractions!!" She replied that this was most likely exactly what was happening!
I haven't had these pains in about 4 months, probably since my antibiotic therapy. But I am actually glad that I got to experience that type of physical feeling, if that makes sense. I remember those times moving around the bathroom, standing and sitting, literally yelling out loud, "Jesus, please help me!!" (I know this sounds so silly and overdramatic, but it was really BAD!!) If I never get pregnant, or never go through labor, at least I can say that my quest for a baby DID include the physical pain of contractions! Is that weird for me to say?? I'm just so glad that I did get to feel that (but also SO glad that I am not feeling it every cycle anymore)!
I did email Dr Toth the other day, because unfortunately, the beautiful all-red periods that I had while having the uterine washes have gone back to TEBB :( The only exception to this was last month, when I was on Zithromax (from Dr Toth) and Diflucan (from my NaPro Dr for post-Peak pasty treatment)- - with the combination of both antibiotics, my period was an AMAZING 7-day, all red, only 1 day of brown spotting. So, this leads me to believe the infection is not eradicated.
He responded today that yes, unfortunately in the recent past he has seen more and more cases of CT that are resistant to his initial therapy regimen. He says to combat this he recommends increased doses of Zithromax over the course of the pre-Peak phase, and then if that shows improvement in my cycles, a follow-up course of uterine washes. I actually really want to do the uterine washes again, because I just want to KICK this darn INFECTION! (He has always said, in all of his books, that vertically transmitted infection is much more resistant than horizontally transmitted pathogens. Darn it.) So, by this point I am already on CD 14, so I will begin this new regimen next cycle, and possibly go in for uterine washes #2 in May or June. It will be less expensive, since DH does not need the prostate injections. Hopefully with the big checks DH's job is supposed to be getting soon, we can handle this unforseen expense.
Tonight I am taking part in the Living Stations :) I volunteered to be a part of it, hoping I'd get an acting part (I love to act, and haven't done any since college), but I will be one of the 2 narrators instead. I'm looking forward to it- one thing I just love about my parish is how they do Stations during Lent. Every week the Knights of Columbus put on a Lenten meal right before the Stations, and then each week the Stations are a different theme: traditional, Marian, Family, Teen, and Living Stations. Living Stations is my favorite, because it takes each Station and develops a monologue for either a real or a fictional character from Jesus' time. For example, one of the fictional characters last year was a carpenter. On the station of Jesus falling for the 1st time, the carpenter took the stage and began working on making a crucifix. He talked about how he had heard that this crucifix was going to be used to crucify another carpenter- and this made him feel guilty. He wondered what it was that the carpenter was guilty of. He wondered if he should not make the crucifix, because his craft was not meant to bring death, but to help them build a life.
I wish everyone a very fruitful, meaningful Holy Week. Truth be told, Holy Week is my favorite week of the entire year.