This is what DH just said to me, as we sat on the couch and I told him that during a homestudy, the couple is interviewed together and then one-on-one.
He almost made me pee my pants!!
Once I calmed down, we started envisioning the one-on-one interviews, and in our minds, it played out much like an episode of Law and Order: Criminal Intent. The "good" social worker would be telling DH to take his time, offering him a glass of water or coffee... and then the "bad" social worker would enter, bang her hand on the table, and tell him, "The jig is up! Your wife just told us about your disciplinary action with the dogs. We know the truth, it's time to come clean!"
And then in the midst of my laughter, I suddenly freaked out! OMG, these people can determine whether or not we can be parents!!! How unfair is that? There are people having kids every day, all over the world, and they never need anyone's ok to do it (even though in many cases, maybe they should), but someone actually has the ability to give me or take away my life's greatest dream???!!!
This is a scary thought.
Speaking of stress-inducers, I just filled out the questionnaire that PPVI sent me for the adrenal reserve study. (If Dr. H thinks I qualify, I'll start taking a low dose of Hydrocort to help with diminished adrenal reserve.) All of the questions were about "Does this stress you out? How about this?" and then they started asking about patterns, like, "Do you find it difficult to get out of bed in the morning, and find yourself not able to until about 10:00am?" Uh, yes. "Do you constantly feel tired, and no amount of sleep or napping relinquishes it?" Yup. By the end of the survey, I was sufficiently stressed out. Not only had I learned how stressed I was, but also how it has been affecting my energy and health. Hurry up and score this thing, Dr. H, 'cuz something tells me I'll be needing that Hydrocort. Throw in some Valium while you're at it.