Man, do I have a bad case this time. I have been SUPER-hormonal all day today. Granted, my dog puking 3 times on the carpet, leaving 3 separate yellow stains that I CANNOT get out with Resolve did not get me off on the right foot. But even I can recognize that screaming/crying "Why me??!!," sobbing on my hands and knees, is not my normal puke clean-up behavior. Then I would start randomly bursting into tears on the couch watching tv, just thinking of how horrible my life is. (Yeah, I know, it's really not all that horrible.) PMS bites the big one.
Also, AF was due today. I'm not technically late, because my post-Peak phases range from 12-14 ever since surgery. But today IS P+14, and 14dpo. Please don't get me wrong, I am not in any way implying that I have a chance in hell of pregnancy. 1st off, I know now that I need to be treated for infection before I really have a chance. 2nd, we used ONE day this cycle, and my cm was gummy throughout the mucus cycle. Not a chance. The reason I bring up being later than expected, however, is because my DA with Dr. Toth is tomorrow. It just figures I'd have to waste an hpt tomorrow morning before the DA... not to mention starting AF at any moment during the day, and most likely during the most inopportune moment (like a transvaginal u/s). Grrrr, I hate AF.
I must say, AF aside, I am really excited about tomorrow. I know DH isn't, since he does not like being poked and prodded and swabbed... but like I told him, he's gonna have to deal. I had entire wedges cut out of my ovaries, after all. The least he can do is get a swab sample! I really believe that tomorrow is going to lead us to our complete restoration of fertility. It's just so nice to think about: Restored Fertility! No more tail-end brown bleeding! No more low morphology (perhaps. I dream big.)
We'll most likely stay in NYC for dinner tomorrow after the DA. We don't go too often, anyway, and it will be nice to treat ourselves after spending a buttload on these tests. Then this weekend I have my On-Site Visit for my Creighton Model Practitioner training... for which I still need to prepare!! So excuse me in advance if I don't get to update you on the DA before Sunday. If I can, I'll try to fill you in briefly before then.
I hope I follow in the footsteps of all of the other great DAs all of you ladies have been having! Wish me luck!