I showed up to work this morning, walked into the main office to sign in, and noticed the Principal whispering with some of the other teachers and the secretary. The atmosphere was completely sombre... I didn't stick around, I figured it didn't concern me, and if I was meant to know, I'd know soon anyway (that's how a school works, word spreads like wildfire).
Sure enough, I got to the classroom, the lead teacher was not around, and the Aide in the room next to mine came in with the news. The young father of one of my students was killed in a Quad accident this past weekend. I was just stunned speechless... this family is just a picture of perfection- both the mother and father owned businesses (the mother owns the Spa in town), they have a son in 2nd grade and a daughter in our Kindergarten class- the kids are just the sweetest, most cordial and well-mannered kids ever. They go on all kinds of trips together as a family, and every member of the family is just a joy to be around.
When the Aide gave me the news, she kept saying, "They had everything. I mean it, everything. And now what? What is it all worth?" That remark really hit home for me. I don't understand why something like this would happen, but I know that it's not something we can ever truly understand while we're here on Earth. But when I look at this tragedy, and think about how this family will go on, I think of how selfish I have been. Here I am, wanting, wanting, wanting... envying families like this one, who seemingly "had it all." But would I trade losing my husband, the father of my children, for a chance to have a baby? If we had to suffer the same kind of loss in order to get what it is we "want," would we still want it?
I just can't make sense of this. My heart just ACHES for this little girl (I didn't know her brother very well, but let me tell you, this girl was just an angel. All smiles, smart, beautiful singing voice, one of those kids for whom you write, "Was a joy to have in class" on their report card.) How can she possibly understand why her father was taken from her? Will she be able to keep the memories she had of him throughout her life, or will they fade in a few years??
If you will, please keep this family in your prayers.